Fit Cheese

My work pants got far too loose and mine doesn’t have the belt loops so I had to get new pants. I bought Padini again. I was wearing XL before this and now I’m wearing M.

I have this mini denim skirt that I bought under the notion that I would loose weight and be able to fit into them. I’m wearing them today & I can actually breathe!

My weight is now 1.5 kg from my goal weight & I can’t be sure if I can reach it by the end of next week. We’ll see, eh?

1) Jumping a lot makes me sweat buckets. 2) After 1.5km I can still talk & text while I run. 3) Doing yoga right after a run makes me sweat buckets also. 4) ZOMG I can do a friggin headstand!

I’m showing signs of slowing down in terms of my fitness. This week I’ve only been to the gym once. Ran once. And went for circuit once. It’s the job, the personal obligations, the sudden bug and sheer discouragement. Is it bad that now I’m on my way to yoga class because I feel like I haven’t gone to the gym enough this month to get my money’s worth? I shouldn’t be feeling this way!

Next week there’ll only be one day of circuit and then I’ll have to go the entire month without it because Jeremy won’t be around. The other members were thinking of still meeting up and don’t our own circuit based on what we can remember.

I’m working out a few sets of routines to do at the gym in the mornings.

Something happened last week… (Work+money-related) & I’m less than pleased. My mood had been pretty foul & everyday I feel like what I’m doing is not worth doing. It’s not worth it for missing out on my workout or a good night’s sleep. It’s not worth it to drain my energy on it.

With my emotions and thoughts not exactly pointing south, I’m starting to crave the snacks, the comfort food. As if being upset gives me the right to eat unnecessarily.

For many years, I’ve been a greedy person. The excuse I made for myself was that I didn’t want to waste food. If nobody’s eating, it’ll go to waste so I might as well eat it! I’ve paid good money, I need to eat my money’s worth. It’s free so I should eat more! I’d look for good value, large portions and eat every damned thing.

That was the attitude (not a good one) that I had towards food and it took substantial effort to change it. People wonder now why I wouldn’t eat the donuts just left there waiting to be wasted or eat the packed fried chicken rice or the snacks in the office. I know now that back that I ate because I was greedy not because I enjoyed what I ate. It’s not just about eating healthy. If I’m not greedy, I’ll eat guilt free when I know I love what I eat.

Last Weigh In: 26 Feb 2012

Weight: -1.9kg Fat%: no change Metabolic Age: no change BMI: -0.7 Degree of Obesity: -3.1%

1.2kg over weekly target. 2.4kg to goal weight.

Thoughts: I’m ecstatic about the surprisingly drastic weight change! Perhaps it was the better controlled diet. But it wasn’t like I didn’t enjoy sweet and sour pork because I did (on Wednesday). I don’t know. But I must be doing something right to be losing almost 2kg in a week. I seriously wasn’t expecting that.

However, my fat percentage maintained and practically everything else did. By the end of March I want to lose another 2.4kg to reach my target weight and lose 2% fat. Losing fat is tough!

Some random things I wanna talk about: (1) I enjoy yoga class but I’m not sure if it’s good for me (2) I sometimes feel like I’m cheating on my gym (3) The office seems to be responding well to the exercises I’ve recommended during our morning exercise session (4) Today someone couldn’t recognize me because I’ve “lost so much weight” (5) At the same time there are people who can’t believe that I’ve lost weight ie. I look the same (6) I’m doing what I’m supposed to do but not quite a disciplined and I’m concerned that I can’t hit my goal weight by end of March (7) At the same time, it doesn’t mean that it all ends by April. I have an idea of what my next goal would be and that’s gonna be even tougher (8) I think the Circuit 25 tank to looks good on me but I’m still shy about “revealing” more flesh when I work out. No like the jiggles!